stayed at home during the weekend.

thought i be guai lui then parents will let me go pangkor.

they not allowed. fine

thought i can go countdown for new year then

WHAT?????!!!! i CANNOT go?

stayed at home just for ntg.

im so pissed!

want to find a job, they dont let.

when i want to buy something, they said i know how to spend $$ but dunno how to earn$$

who asking me NOT to find a job and help you for 3 mths.

i did not refuse to help you but u said starting frm 6thjan.

i m thinking of enjoying my hols until 6thjan, but i could not.

wondering am i 17 years old now.

everything under ur control

just like today, i planned to clean up my room

woke up in the morning, suddenly ask me to follow u to maid agency

i did not say any single thing and just follow blindly what u asked to do

do i look like a bad girl

i dun understand somethimes you are too busy or what

no time to think deeply what i want

im 17 yrs old,no longer a small girl and spm is finished.

y my bros can always go out without your permission, anytime, anywhere since they are 12

okay, i understand, maybe they are BOYS.

everytime i talk about doing this or that

they will say:"wait till you have your husband and ask him to bring you there la"

husband front, husband back

are you seriously want me to find a husband now?
so i could do what i want?

i think you had made me feel to find a HUSBAND now, not even a boyfriend but a husband

you like to say husband and when i mention husband, you will say im too young to talk abt husband

can you please give me a reasonable and possible excuse for my ask nxt time

yes, you are an understanding person

why must you wait till i have to argue with you all only you all realize

just like the countdown thing,

you dont let me to go,

and i said if i cant go out that day, i wont be able to go out after that

since you want me to help u in your business and even hse chores.

i promised you to help you for 3 months, i wont go out without ur permission

can i just have a chance to go out b4 that?

and you realize.

"ohya, takkan sit at home everyday and be useless person"

i dont want ppl to think that im useless, NO WAY!

i dowan ppl to say im princess of you all.

yes, i know you all want to protect me

dowan me to be bad

please trust me

im your daughter,

i will do my best of being a daughter.

have i ever make you dissapointed?

maybe, but do you really bear it in your mind

i dont think so

becuz i know, you love me.

thank you so much and please, do give me more freedom.

trust me, trust your daughter.

i wonder i will enjoy on that day 

even you let me out.